Looking at these pictures make me happy, but they also shed light on this world that we live in. I pray that my little bundle of joy will grow up and never be ashamed to say that his favorite aunt is a woman of color and that she loves him. I pray the same for my two other nephews as well. God blessed me with three nephews: Troy, Addison, and Quinn (pictured above). I get it we're not the same color but we are the same race, the human race.
I've been called a nanny, a maid, etc. I'm even nervous to take my nephews anywhere by myself because no matter how much we try to force ourselves to believe that it's not true, racism does exist. This isn't about Trump, this is about the despicable hate-filled people on this earth who feel like my life is not worth the same as their own. My family won't always be there, I can't always count on my big brothers, their friends or my dad to protect me. They won't always be there.
I used to think that if I was educated enough, and if I made sure I dotted my eyes and crossed my tees I'd never have any problems with those type of people but at the end of the day this is who I am. I'm not an engineer, or a doctor, or an olympian and to my Cox-Steubinger family that I love so dearly, my name is not Callie Cox, if a cop pulls me over and asks me for my identification I am Nkechi Kayla Princess Nimer and if that's not enough to matter in this world so be it. You can have this world, all I need is my God, my health, my strength and the love of my loved ones. I cannot be afraid, I cannot live in fear, I cannot worry because those things that are out of my control, all I can do is trust God.
On 9/11 I was in the 4th grade at T.H. Rogers elementary I remember singing hand-in-hand "I'm proud to be an American where at least I know I'm free..." surrounded by all cultures and people from all walks of life. I don't think any of us could have predicted that 15 years later our country would be in this state. This isn't the America I grew up proud to be a citizen of, that America was about unity. This new America just wants us to be divided. Fortunately, one day those old, rotten, stuck in their ways generations will die off.
Our generation will run this country and when we do, we will do it a million times better. For now, I will pray for peace, and strength for those trying days I face working and living in a predominantly white/conservative area. I will lift my head to the sky on bended knee and continue to pray to my God and trust that better days are ahead. "We shall overcome, we shall overcome, we shall overcome someday. Oh deep in my heart I do believe the we shall overcome someday..."